I'm at work texting my homegirl. Before I begin this story, I wanna talk about her for a minute. She's my roommate for next semester, so she'll be mentioned a lot on here. She is one of the realest, smartest, sweetest, and happiest people I know. She has MORE than her share of problems surrounding her, but she always rises above and beyond them. And I respect, admire, and love her for that.
Anyway, we're texting about Trackstar....who happens to be related to her. Apparently his little brother told her that he deleted my number from his phone. I had to laugh. He's a couple of months younger than me, but I didn't know he was still on his high school game!! Anyway, I told her that if that's what he wants, it's more than cool with me, but he's gonna regret it later. She replied, "Gurl, you're crazy!" I'm really not. I'm dead serious. And before you even think it, I AM NOT COCKY. I'm mildly confident, but that doesn't have anything to do with this. They just ALWAYS regret it. It NEVER fails. Every person I've ever dated (even the ones from MIDDLE SCHOOL) has come back. Or tried to. And Trackstar already has a bad habit of saying he doesn't want to talk to me "LIKE THAT" anymore, and then retracting that statement after 2 or 3 days. It's emotionally draining. And I'm tired of it. I'm tired of the little boys in men's bodies.
I was talking to my sister and her friend (my sister's 25 and her friend is like 30) and we came to the conclusion that most of the guys my age will still be playing these little boy games when they're 30. This conclusion is based on the FACT that a lot of the men who are currently around the age of 30 are STILL playing those same games. This is so disheartening for a good majority of females my age. There are some females who don't partcularly mind the games that guys play, either because they play the same games, or they're hoping that the guys will grow up soon. And I applaud them for being able to accept these guys and their games. But ME. Well, I feel that if I can be dedicated and honest, then I deserve someone who can reciprocate that. Plain and simple. My parents always told me that no one should ever just "settle" for any old thing. Everyone deserves the best. Sadly, some people either don't believe they deserve it, or that they will ever find it. I know that my "best" is out there. And I think I had it once upon a time, but my "best" wasn't at it's best yet. Anyway, I've been officially single for awhile (since October), and while it does get a little lonely (it actually starts to piss me off sometimes), I would rather be lonely, than deal with a bunch of bull from some male who has his own agenda that does not include being a dedicated, honest man. I don't deserve that, so I'm not going to settle for it.
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