Goodbye......Hello

Quite a bit has been going on in my life. Too much, in fact. There are so many people coming and going, that my head is constantly turning to see who's going to leave me, or step in for a minute. I guess I'll start with the most recent person who has decided to step out of my life. I guess he was one of those "season" people. You know, the people who come into your life for a short while to teach you something. I'll call him my 'Trackstar". I "met" him in December, but didn't really start talking to him until mid-January. He was a sweetie. He was attentive, funny, and intelligent. And he was a welcome distraction. Yeah, I just admitted to using him as a distraction. (I might talk about what he was distracting me from....but then again....) Anyway, somehow, I became attached to him. I don't know how it happened. I didn't really WANT it to happen, but it did. And it felt good. For the little while it lasted. To shorten this kinda long story, he's leaving the state, and I guess my life for awhile. I don't know. He has issues with telling me things that he knows will bother me, so details are scarce for the moment. But in any case, I doubt if my Trackstar will ever actually see this, but just know that I owe you a lot. You taught me so much about myself without even meaning to. I love you dude. lol. But no, seriously, I do. And you will always have a special place in my heart and mind.

Now, this person who has entered my life, has been here for awhile. I've known him for a few months.....he started out as the friend of a friend, but now he's MINE lol. I think I'll call him "DIP" (for Dangerous Intriguing and Pleasing). We have so much in common. So much to talk about, laugh about, and whine about lol. Our friendship is also kinda unexpected. And on the surface, it's legitimate, but beneath the surface, OH BOY....if anyone really knew.....wow.....lol. I'm being a little dramatic....but not by much. I really don't want to say a lot on this because there's SO much to say, but I felt it was necessary to bring it up right now. And I know DIP understands. Don't you? lol......"I guess I'll see you next lifetime......"

I'm tired of talking about this now, it's emotionally draining.....Part Two of "Goodbye.......Hello" coming soon.