Shock.

Can't believe I just did that.
Can't believe it came to that.
I'm in shock.
Never thought it would hurt that much.
Never thought I would FEEL this much.
I hope I sounded braver than I felt.
This is the worst hand I've ever been dealt.
Dramatic? Always.
Overly dramatic? Not this time.
My head hurts.
It's been hurting since I realized what I had to do.

I can't even finish this. Later.