Daydreams

I'm a daydreamer. But my daydreams aren't your typical daydreams. Mine don't magically appear in my mind, they're carefully planned out by yours truly. When I can't go to sleep I daydream. When I can't focus, I daydream to rededicate myself to the task at hand. When reality is a little too real, I quietly slip away deep into myself and make things happen in my daydreams. I guess my daydreams could be called fantasies, but they usually aren't very erotic or anything. I don't even think I want them to happen. I mean, it would be pretty cool if they DID happen, but who said life is supposed to be cool? I don't know. I guess I'm saying that my daydreams are stress related.....and I've been daydreaming a lot lately. I've been daydreaming so much lately that I look forward to lulls in my work load because they're an opportunity for me to daydream.....I yearn to go home and lay down for a nap, cus it gives me an excuse to daydream......I look forward to "bedtime" because although I'm sleepy, I know it will take a nice little daydream to send me into a deep slumber. Oh, and my daydreams must be complex, but true to life, and interesting...or I'll "throw" them away and have to start over. It's actually a very trying process. I must have the right daydream or else I won't be able to fall asleep or focus on anything else......

The point of that long rambling mess is that my daydreaming habit is starting to seem unhealthy....I'm shifting focus from something stressful that desperately needs to be resolved. And I'm doing it quite willingly. (SIGH) It's time to woman up, so to speak.