My Chocolate Prince Charming

So. I've been thinking. And I've come to the conclusion that he's not out there. The man of my dreams is just that: the man of my DREAMS. He doesn't exist. He's not out there looking for or waiting on me. And since he doesn't exist, I think it's time for me to grow up and forget about my Chocolate Prince Charming. Wow. It feels kinda good to admit that. I'm not giving up on finding the right person for me, but I am giving up on that total package that I always wanted. That total package being: religious, intelligent, sweet, funny, family oriented, tall, kinda muscular, killer smile, sensuous eyes, nice hair, drug and alcohol free, and with little to no foul language slipping from that sweet mouth. Yep. I know. I was BEYOND ambitious with all of that. But it's what I thought was my total package. It may be A total package, but I don't believe it's mine. How did I come to this conclusion? Well, I just took a look at my track record with guys, and by golly (yeah, I just said by golly) none of those guys came close. Either I've been settling, or what I THOUGHT was my total package was no such thing. As you can tell, I'm leaning towards that last option.....cus honestly, there's no way in the world that I could possibly say that I've settled (ok, so I know my female friends have someone in mind that they would say I settled for...that's not nice yall). I have been blessed to have had some downright GOOD MEN in my life....If they're so good, then why am I single, you ask? Well, just because they're GOOD, doesn't mean they're good for ME (at least that's what I tell myself).....And this train of thought didn't pop into my head randomly (although I am quite a random person). Bianca and I were chatting and she pointed out some simalarities between some of the males who used to be in my life....I had to agree with her. However, the one thing that I think separates them from each other is that all the qualities they have in common are improved upon in the next person......yep......my judgment gets better and better......